Cats

Ever since I can remember I loved cats.

I found my self living almost an entire life without cats.
We'll cats I got to live with.
I had Spade, in third grade he died. Instead of someone one telling me I felt an absence. I can remember feeling empty. Then run and crying out for him up and down my street until I was told he was killed my poison by a neighbor killing gophers. What the hell are people doing with poison in the suburbs? We live on top of each other and affect lives without ever speaking in scaring ways.

I found random kittens giving them away in front of grocery stores because my Mom had allergies.

I had an apartment with my first husband. I couldn't stand not to bring a neighbors kitten home. Two problems......... he was extremely uncomfortable with his allergies and the Mama cat would cry for her baby outside our door.
Then we had a house and a Tux moved in with us. The x wouldn't let mekeep him inside @night. Martinez swarms with Raccoons at night. They ate his food and he never came back.

I even told him I wanted a kitty for having to go through the crazy physical and mental feeling form my pregnancy with Marysa. He agreed. It was a lie!!!! No kitty.


My divorce.......Mike and Bob moved in. My daughter wasn't allergic thank God. The trained us to open the door, feed and walk them. Bob could chirp and Mike never lost his patience. I got married and Bob was stolen and renamed Gomez by a crazy man at the top of our hill. Tigerlily was brought home shortly after my miscarriage. She stalked Joey for blood. Crapped on me while I slept or in my shoes while I was pregnant with Sonny. When I brought him home she attempted to spray him then adopted her self a baby free home with a mother and old daughter at the bottom of my hill. Mike. He's my heart. I hope he followed his spirt to another good like. Unfortunately I fear the suburbs got him too. I still look for him 2+ years later hoping he'll come home.

Now I have Pumpkin. My unilateral decision. My friend. He's loved and is chubby from it. He's spunky and loyal. He feels pains and stays near to heal. A day plus ago he showed me what it will be like for me as a parent of a teenager. 4am he called me to come in. I just didn't want to get up. He's be fine an hour????????? No he disappeared. I could feel my heart tighten. War I am positive thought I was crazy. I called the shelter and sat at work all day going sick with worry. No Pumpkin when I got home. I'm dead to feeling anything bu sadness and having to do what was needed care for my family. Warren feed the kids. I sat by the window and walked my yard and driveway over and over calling him. Finally Warren takes my two Leger Pumpkin out to look. Calling him comes in side.
Meow! He's home.

I love my kitty. I'm a better person with him. Or at least inside I feel that way. I can only imagine he wasn't gone but comunicating a message with me. I not be lazy in my care for the ones I love most. That my 3 oldest kids maybe middle sized in elementary school now but soon will be teens. Doing things Pumpkin was doing........worring me sick. Heaven help me. Mama of 5 and future cat lady.

Eggs

The little things make me happy. I give my dog Ozzy a raw egg from time to time. My Dad swears it will keep his coat shinny. Today I set a cold raw egg on the ground. I watched Ozzy carefully push it round with his nose, pick it up in his mouth and carry it to the lawn. On the way he dropped it and the egg cracked. As expected. He then nosed the egg around licking up the spillage. It was really fun to watch.

Best reader photos: Will the real rubber ducky please swim forward, a pumpkin chomping squirrel and more - Inside Bay Area

Best reader photos: Will the real rubber ducky please swim forward, a pumpkin chomping squirrel and more - Inside Bay Area

A mile stone for me

Today I brought my family to met Joey's biological sister Ashley. This was huge for me since I have been so protective of Joey for the last four years. Joey is my nephew that my husband Warren and I adopted shortly after we were married. Ashley is his sister from his mother Darlene.

Joey has had so many questions about his brother and sisters and I had no answers for him. I got in contact with his mothers ex-husband who has always been a good guy to my brother before Joey was born, and Joey's hero since Joey was taken from his mother.

A month or so ago after talking to Joey's therapist I decided to contact Skip to see if Joey's siblings were safe and could be in contact with him. Skip put me in contact with Ashley. She and Joey talked to each other fairly regularly so we decided to get together for Joey's birthday at a park.

When we arrived at the park Joey seemed nervous then he quickly warmed up to Ashley. I had to really hold my tears back. They were so happy to see each other. Ashley looks just like Joey. She was there with her dad Skip, fiance' Arther, their two children Matt and Malea. They had birthday gifts for Joey that were an awesome ice breaker. We spent about two hours with their family. Playing football with the kids. Talking about Joey and some of his hobbies and academic achievements. I told them a little history I knew about Joey and they filled in the blanks of some information I didn't know about Joey as a baby.

Over all I thought it was a good day. We may get together again after she gets back from Disneyland.

My mama said

People who know me well know how close I am to my mother. She is a woman people can only wish they had in their own life. She had only two wishes for her children growing up....... One they are god fearing.... Two they can take care of their own person. Those who know my family know the heart break she must have with her children. She still loves us all, never judges us and gives us little bits of advice.

Some of the words my Mom says often I sure came from her mother and I know I say them and one can only hope my daughter will say them too. ---Treat others how you would want to be treated. Give and expect nothing in return because it's the right thing to do. Every mother crow thinks their baby is the blackest. These are some of my favorites. I often hear them when I make choices. I give to charity, I volunteer when I can, I try my hardest to do the right thing.

Last week was Vacation Bible School at my church. The kids would yell out Fear Not every time God was mentioned. They also learned a lot about how God provides and about God sighting. I didn't go to the instruction but I was at the church all week. I sat in chapel sang the songs and even joined in a devotion of the VBS staff.

Well following my mama's advice I gave away cloth diapers to a new mama, I had my brother who is homeless over for dinner, I help my friend with her four kids so she can get through school and I have very little my self to help anyone out with. I have been off work for ten months now. I have collectors calling me but some how God provides for me. I have wonderful people helping watch my children while I get my family use to me working full-time again, I found $20 this week I used on gas for my empty tank, my husband was offered a job making $18k more a year than he currently makes and my neighbors brought me over a box of canned food. I expected none of this but I am sure thankful for all of it.

Two things to be thankful for is my Mama and all she has taught me and God for providing daily bread to us.

The end is nearing

My extended stay home is quickly coming to an end.I go back to work on August 4th for two weeks, home two more weeks and back to full-time.

My kids just spent an exciting fun energetic and tiring week at First Lutheran Church, Concord Vacation Bible School. Tomorrow morning they will be singing their songs they learned, even Sonny will be joining in on the fun. Yay!

My weekend is full of laundry, vacuuming, deep cleaning of kitchen and bathroom, making lunches for 4 in advance and making sure day camp bags are packed with sunscreen, towels and changes of clothes. Oh and babysitting Mattias 15 with autism and his sister princess Genna. (also known as Sonny's best pal)

I have been working on a slow acclamation for Sonny into pre-school so it's not so hard on him. When I'm back at work full-time. I'm nervous about my nanny-share for Declan. She seems to communicate better with my partner than me. Anyone who knows me knows I am a hands on mama and if I'm not comfortable I make things happen to be comfortable. My partner keeps reassuring me it will be OK. I sigh. I just want to get her through school so I can relax some. I worry about her and her kids way to much.

I have been interviewing mother's helpers to get Marysa and Joey back and forth from school to music lessons and soccer practice. I think I may have one who will be responsible enough that I don't worry. Now I play the waiting game for the response if my job offer is worth her time or not.

I still have referee class to take and need to find out if I can take U8 and upgrade to U10 if needed, or if I can barrow my referee volunteer from last year. Soccer takes over my life very soon. Yikes! Why do I do this?

To top off everything that needs to get done on my deadline. Warren has been working more. Our house is getting slowly messier, Sonny is calming down some and Declan is becoming mobile. Not to mention Joey's birthday is Tuesday and he wants a bike.

My after the income rolls in more regular tasks are becoming my list of things to do. 1. get carpets cleaned, 2. pack for our move once the new house becomes a reality,3. etc. etc.

I have a package to mail

You'd think with mailing stations popping up everywhere mailing a package would be easy. Well I guess if you're on regular business hours? I originally was going to go on my lunch a mail a package and said well Longs Drugs has the mail center I can use that after work. The mail center was broken. Then I remembered the Kinko's is also FedEx and I can mail my package there, except Quiznos next door caught on fire and caused smoke damage. There's a UPS store down the street that is closed on Sunday. I though there was a new Kinko's in the new Kohl's shopping center. Tanner spotted it and said it looks like it closed too. Sure enough it was, it opens at noon and it's 1030 now. I guess we'll go to the park and eat lunch and take a nap then try again. What a pain.